|Burke ridin' solo - 13 months old|
Thanks to family and friends (and Christie's mandate:), this began a 1-2 week period of not being alone with Burke and always having someone else around. It was also the start of my relationship with a shrink (Therapist). What I learned, more so from my own reflection and discussions with my wife, was that I was having a hard time accepting my status as a stay at home dad, without an income to show for it. A self-loathing bitterness for not being who I thought I would be at this point in time (read "A Letter to Myself") . This, all in combination with my preconceived ideals as to what fatherhood would be like and accepting my new role as a Dad. It was about trading in one social-status for another. Realization that my life would never be the same. Responsibility for responsibilities. What happened to all my friends?
So now, it's been 13 months, 16 days and about 18 hours since Burke was pulled from the womb, and it seems like just yesterday that Burke first smiled at me. Although those first 6 months were hellacious, these past 7 months, 16 days and about 18 hours have trumped all. I'm very happy with where we are as a family right now. As long as Christie stays consistent with her Pill, there will be no additions to our family any time soon. I'm in love, and I'm content.